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28 January, 2014

lost & tripping with shamans in NYC


Aya: Awakenings - Trailer from Rak Razam on Vimeo.

For all those seeds the vine has touched, and for those yet to sprout....   


Rushing through the cold streets of drizzly New York City after a couple of mis-directions on the subway, I finally arrived at the cinema. I looked around “is this the right place” I asked myself as I mopped my sweaty brow and took in a deep centering breath. While according to my friend Kyle, getting lost may arguably be my forte, being late is something I constantly work with in the land of time especially since my watch strap decided to snap (and not having a phone etc.) 

The scent of sage filled my nostrils and soothed my nerves while affirming that despite being a little late for the showing; I had arrived at the right place. This was the evening I was going on a trip to the Amazon and thanks to my tardiness, my friend and I (sorry Pablo!) were forcibly sat on the front row for some airborne journeys of Pacha Mamma spirit through shamanic medicines in Rak Razam’s latest documentary; AYA Awakenings.

While personally, I advocate meditation; it did become very clear to me that there are medicines out there for those searching for that heart opening experience of oneness. I asked Rak some questions after what was a wonderfully insightful experience. 

1. For those who do not know about Ayahuasca can you describe its qualities?

Ayahuasca is an indigenous plant medicine from the Amazon that combines MAO-inhibiting vine with DMT-containing plants for a hallucinogenic (visionary healing modality. You can feel the vine seeping through your blood and body as it locks onto your vibrational frequency and starts clearing and healing blockages and supressions, ills and hurts. It can be a bitter earthy medicine, or sometimes neutral, thick or syrupy, and like most medicines it usually tastes awful. But it is the most powerful tool in the Amazonian shaman's medicine cabinet. It's been proven to scientifically relink up the synapses of the brain flushing it clean, and you purge and vomit up any sicknesses within you, whilst simultaneously being thrust into a world of geometric visions, sometimes spirits, entities, and multi-dimensional reality!

2. In the documentary, one of the most powerful shots was sharing your experience during the Ayahuasca ritual. In as far as words can describe, what was that like?

I liken it to a connection to the web of life, but a visceral, real, immediate and emotional connection. Ayahuasca opened up my heart chakra, my ability to feel, my intellectual-empathic pathways to feel the fact that there are no negative spaces separating us from everything... we are all connected in the Great Green Womb where we are all one, the atomic sea of vibrational consciousness itself. To feel the wind and the breath of mother nature, to hear the frogs and insects and know with a certainty they are talking with one another and pouring through spirit in the sounds, connecting and cascading the other species in the web, to feel that connection and the intimacy of life itself is transforming.

3. Has that changed the way you perceive and interact with the world?

I think so. I'm in the baseline world most of the time, but with an overlay memory of that interconnection and awareness of the larger matrix of nature and us as one species strand in the collective, interdependent whole. Every thought, word, action and deed ripples through the web of becoming and that remembrance reminds me to be as present, loving and understanding as I can in each moment. Sometimes that 'holographic awareness' can see the causal domino effect as certain events and things interact and connect to the larger whole, and sometimes I can see those strands and how they connect with an empathic knowing. The world is alive and aware and we are but one layer of Gaia's never endings in matter...!

4. One of your panelists mentioned the power of one's imagination. What are your thoughts on the mainstream media's impact on this in our present world?

The imagination has become ensconced in the mind forg'd manacles Blake wrote about in our modern age. Imagination has at once been commodified down to a narrow bandwidth of possibility, and the cultural dreamings we once had in our tribal mythologies are erased, or worst, co-opted and turned into saccharine Hollywood films. The heroic archetype has similarly been commodified by Hollywood like a virus that has taken control of the host body and is used to tap into this deep longing the human race has to express its imagination, which for me is linked to intuition and can be used as a valuable psychic tool to carve out the imaginal realm, to make manifest what we dream amongst an infinite sea of morphing probability. Imagination can be our GPS to survive, to dream in a better world, to improve the human condition, to think outside the box and to magically make real probability streams to anchor the thing we dream. Imagination is our anchor to the infinite, more than its come to mean in the denuded western entertainment complex: I-mage-i-nation is a holy, spiritual act where we overlap with Great Spirit and know and become.

5. What is your vision for the future of mankind and our planet?

Well let's talk sustainability - what does that mean? Ditching hierarchies, power (or revealing power has always been about the collective, the tribe, the majority) and collecting and connecting in networks, tribes, extended family structures that understand needs and wants, taking only what they need, and feeding the web of life around in all directions. Letting go of the old world of division, loving and caring for all our fellow being and species as interdependent units in a greater whole, working together for maximum connection and meaning.

Plant entheogens can reveal our own divinity, our soul, and at the same time reveal the frequency of soul we are embedded in, the existence of an ecology of souls and sentience that extends far beyond the physical. I feel the plants are tuning us back into these potentials as training wheels, and the medicine helps us remember our full beings as galactic citizens, and sometime soon we won't need the medicines, but will step forth with the ability to engage with the greater whole. 

24 January, 2014

super madre!


One of the most inspiring people that I have met in my life has got to be my mother. She's a Venezuelan born lady who left her homeland at 19 to see the world. She lived in Perugia, Italy studying Italian and then made her way to England with hitch-hike galavants and her very own free spirited adventures before meeting my father and settling down to married life and babies. That's the short version. The fact that she was born in to a very poor world that many of us in the west can only imagine, living in a simple and humble family concrete bungalow where she supported her family financially at an age where many of us are still at school also adds to her incredibly amazing and inspiring life story.

Mum has come in and out of my travels and the evolution of our relationship and our experiences has been the most impressionable and powerful as I'm sure any one can imagine. She's a super woman and despite at times wishing for some motherly loving in moments of despair and sickness, I've learned to take care of myself which has been hard for us both to realise. As any traveler will know, those moments are the hardest and most loneliest while being far from loved ones has taken a lot of getting used to.

I asked Mum what the best advice she ever received was recently when she came to visit me in New York. Her response moved me so much and gave me another level of appreciation and respect for her that I had to share it.

My younger brother was born with a hole in his heart and the blood circulating his body in the wrong direction along with a couple of broken ribs. Intuitively Mum knew something was wrong with him, he wouldn't breastfeed, his skin was pale and yet every time she saw a doctor they told her he was fine. I am sure any parent will know how upsetting it feels to sense something wrong with one's newborn and being met with wall after wall of cynicism from those who are 'supposed to know'.  Eventually after tests, doctors realised my brother James had a serious heart condition and at 7 months old was to be one of the youngest children to have a heart by-pass in the UK. It was a tragic time for my family. Mum explained to me that as she prepared for her baby to go in to surgery the anaesthetist turned to her and gave her those words of wisdom that she still carries with her today; "Stop crying and get yourself together. If you want your boy to live you need to be brave and give him stregnth. Be happy and play with him and make sure that he can't sense that you're so distressed."

My brother's chances of survival were incredibly slim and yet to my mother's credit she prayed and prayed for his life, for that, I have the most amazing gratitude. My pops also agrees that it is thanks to Mum, that my brother is alive today - a friend I know I will have for life.

A pretty amazing woman if you ask me and an honour to share my life with. 

18 January, 2014

bring your dreams to life

"Children are the future stewards of the world and helping them to understand that they have freedom of choice and the ability to discern their calling is so important." - Andrew Katz (Boo Bears Dad)
beautiful dreamboards hanging in the classroom after the workshop
Bring me all of your dreams,
You dreamers,
Bring me all of your
Heart melodies
That I may wrap them
In a blue cloud-cloth
Away from the too-rough fingers
Of the world.
- Langston Hughes

Realising how western curriculum is tailored to an industrious 18th century mind (Post: leaders of tomorrow) honing on maths and science rather than creativity, while also recognising the impact the repression of the creative spirit can have later in life certainly made me feel incredibly honoured to be invited to teach to children at a school in Philadelphia on behalf of The Dream Flag Project (to which I am an ambassador of).

I met the founder Jeff in Tengbouche, Nepal in 2011.  I saw many of the children’s dream flags flying in the winds around the highest school in the world, Khumjung of Solokhumbu, the Everest region of Nepal and was incredibly moved (previous post & video). The project made a deep impression upon my soul to the extent that I also reflected upon what it was I dreamt for in this world and my own life. Its no secret that when I return from that amazing two week holiday in Nepal; that my life changed significantly. It was a reflection I needed.
Jeff: fellow poet, dreamer, teacher & yogi.

Steph and I interviewed Jeff and his words moved us both to tears as he shared a very real perspective of the world we live in and the value of connecting children’s dreams from around the world to unite us regardless of all the layers of societal differences and cultural ideas. All these children have dreams and the beautiful thing to see is how much they wish for peace and love in this world.

This week The Dream Flag Project invited me to run a poetry workshop at a school in Philadelphia (slightly cringe-worthy-on-my-part-video made by the school of the workshop I ran here). I was incredibly honoured to have the opportunity to facilitate four workshops for groups of 11-year-old girls. What are their dreams? I asked them. What would they do if they couldn’t fail? What do they want for the world? What is their essence? What brings them to life? 

It was a wonderful exercise in ‘blue sky’ creative exploration providing a tangible foundation of visual stimuli; namely a dream board, to become the springboard for their poetic prose and eventually their own dream flag that will blow to the winds a prayer for the world. They all unite in that invisible thread of truth which beautifully connects the futures of children around the world as the strings hold each flag together in one big wish. It's divine. It's love.

I am a dreamer but that doesn’t mean I live in la-la-land (read previous post: facing challenges of being a dreamer), I feel the need for very practical ways of bringing dreams to life while considering too, what the ‘big picture’ looks like to encourage unity in the world as a whole, with a togetherness that transcends religion, societal ideals, gender and time with a consciousness that paints a world beautifully from the heart in kinship. The Dream Flag Project to me, does just that. I love it. I hope you feel the wonderful inspirations too.

The most amazing thing I would like to add is the fact that Jeff is also a yogi.  And not just any old yogi, for his yoga talent show he spun hoops around his waist while reciting poetry. I know an adventurer of spirit when I see one ;) he kindly gifted me a beautiful book: The Radiance Sutras which I am enjoying studying and reciting at present.

Enjoy some images I captured of the architecture of Philadelphia and also snaps from the workshop.





















12 January, 2014

a poet that know's it

According to one of the most inspiring artists, Pablo Picasso; 'The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.' 

Gosh darn god made me a romantic English poet. I admittedly make myself cringe sometimes with some of the cheesey poetry I find myself writing. Here's a gift to share that I dedicate to family and friends from around the world.

I feel incredibly fortunate to have had some amazing opportunities in life, that I know many do not have; to see the world and be inspired by some of the most breath-taking places and experiences has been a very beautiful experience despite the challenges I've had to face.

I hope at least these words and pictures offer something of value as a little tribute to the souls that touch the heart encountered while traveling the world.

11 January, 2014

natural beauty locked in stone

Egan & Jess in the snows of New England, USA

One of the highlights to my Christmas in New York City was unwrapping a beautiful package from a lovely true and beautiful couple who I met in India and having a stunning piece of jewellery around my neck designed by an inspiring and empowered lady; Jessica Vose. 

Jessica is an artist in love with nature, precious stones and silver, hence she designs and makes stunning jewellery. The package I opened was a collection of amazing stones and their stories, explaining each of their essences. I felt so comforted, protected and empowered by the precious stones that are great for travelling with and I love the deep shimmering blue Labradorite pendant that I wear around my neck believed to encapsulate the Northern Lights. I really enjoy meditating with my crystals that take me back to the giant cleansing crystals the live encrusted within the amazing giants of the Himalayas of India where I felt very soulfully cleansed, connected and true.

I met Jessica in India where she was bringing to life Saraswati Stones inspired by the Goddess Saraswati who is strongly associated with flowing water in her role as a goddess of knowledge. She is depicted as a beautiful woman possessing four arms, and is usually shown wearing a spotless white sari and seated on a white lotus or riding a white swan. 

True to Saraswati's jewel like essence, Jessica asks people to embrace the beauty of nature with earth energy jewellery and I'd invite you to visit her online store and see if any of those beautiful stones call to you too.

Tourmaline

Labradorite

Tigers Eye

03 January, 2014

on being a citizen not a consumer




"What was said to the rose that made it open was said to me here in my chest." - Rumi
A powerful documentary by an award winning Hollywood director who explores the relationship we have to stuff and what makes us happy. The community and connection between us all. 
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